Sustaining New Habits

It’s hard to build new habits, but there’s two I’m finally keeping up with after years, if not months, of constant slacking, forgetting and most of all, a lack of motivation.

I’ve been attempting to learn Japanese on and off for a couple of years now. I started with learning hiragana which I memorized most of last year sometime; after relentlessly writing and rewriting them until it almost became muscle memory. In the recent six months, I’ve been using Duolingo more but hadn’t been able to keep up a streak longer than a week. I’d practise every day for a week and then give up for 3.

Today I’m at my longest streak ever of 24 days, and I’m determined to make it a month! (Hopefully more too^^).

The other habit I’ve been working on is reading a little bit every day. I learnt in my first year of uni not too long ago how important it is for any writer or aspiring writer to read as much as they can! I read a lot as a young teen, but the longer school went on the less I read and in college and from thereafter I don’t think I read a single book until I started my university course. I eased myself in by starting with a set of small books ‘The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. I didn’t manage to read every day and, in fact, I was slow getting through them.. it took me about 8 months to finish “the increasingly inaccurately named trilogy of five”. I did however enjoy the books greatly and soon after finishing the last one started the first book of Game of Thrones which I’ve read every day for the past 16 days and gotten halfway through already! (For some perspective one Game of Thrones book is about the same length as all 5 Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy books!) So there’s a big improvement there already!^^

I’m aiming to finish reading the first book by the end of this month so I can move onto the next one^^

Setting a smaller goal

Its hard to keep up with writing, especially when the simple task of existing is a challenge itself. Motivation doesn’t come easily for me and living with bpd makes it all the more chaotic.

I want to set myself a small goal of some kind to try and gain some momentum but everytime I try to I tend to loose quickly.

Maybe I can start with a small post a day, every day for a week. Simple posts, updates on what I’m up to and my thoughts at the end of each day…

Does every post need a conclusion and do I need to have a point to every one? I’m not sure, but it’s something I’d like to figure out.^^

~ Bullet Journal 2021: August Spread ~

I realise I’ve been away from the bullet journal side of my blog for some time now, I felt like I was doing the same thing over and over, and that’s not what I want.

I’ve also been a little all over the place since I stopped putting as much effort and energy into my journaling, it turns out that my bullet journal is basically holding my life together… So in order to get myself back on track and into a new (and hopefully improved) routine I’ve created something new for next months spread!^^


Cover Page

I’ve been neglecting my art practice recently, I was missing motivation and inspiration to create, I was also lacking in time for some parts.

Whilst trying to put more effort into my bullet journal and block again I’m also trying to motivate myself to draw more too! So for August’s cover page, I did a lot of research (scrolling endlessly through Pinterest for inspiration…). I didn’t have the energy to do anything too complicated so I went for drawing a pretty sunflower^^


Calendar

Since I came upon this calendar design, I cant seem to give it up! It may be a little fiddly to draw all the boxes out sometimes but, I really love this adorable idea and I find it super useful to have a calendar for each month so I can make a note of important dates for each month and be able to look at them all at once^^


Mood Tracker

My August mood tracker might be my favourite mood tracker so far! I find that I have a lot more freedom of my choice of colour for each mood whilst still keeping to the theme (In this case ice cream). It’s also going to be a lot easier to distinguish multiple colours in one day (for those roller coaster days^^”).

I’m looking forwards to colouring this one in so hopefully that’ll motivate me to keep on top of my journaling next month!^^


Habit Tracker

Some of my previous habit trackers have taken up a lot of time just to draw out every month. A lot of the time I would end up missing out half the month of tracking habits because I put off drawing out the habit tracker until the very last minute…

Soo, I’ve been going through an abundance of different styles until I find one that’s easy and quick enough to draw out each month and that works for me! (I have to like how it looks to be able to use it..^^’)


Exercise Tracker

Exercise logs and trackers are another page I find myself struggling with from time to time. I like to see my progress as well as keeping track of how much exercise I do, sometimes it can get overwhelming with the different kinds of exercise and not wanting to do the same routine every day. To try and combat that conundrum I’ve used a simple exercise tracker that gives me more of an option on what exercise I do. (it also doesn’t look as bad when I don’t complete a day)

I’ve of course also added a table to see my weight and measurements at the start and end of the month to see if I’ve made any progress at all…


To-do List

My to-do list hadn’t changed in almost a year. I kept the same design because I had the same stuff going on every month. A mountain of uni work and too many personal projects that I just can never keep up with^^”.

I changed it up a bit for next month, not because I’m doing things completely different, but because I was beginning to feel like everything was becoming repetitive. This new to-do list design will hopefully stop me from feeling like I’m just doing the same things over and over and over again.


Budget

My budget tracker is another page I’d find myself avoiding drawing out. I had so many different sections and boxes that it was all just a little too much. Instead, I’ve created a much simpler design so I can keep up with my incomings and outgoings without getting as overwhelmed and confused by an overcrowded page.


Brain Dump

I haven’t changed my brain dump page in a while because even when I don’t use the page too much it’s still one of the more useful pages I have each month.

I forget a lot of things, especially any fun ideas I have and things I want to do, create or even to go somewhere so I find it incredibly useful to have a place to write these little notes down that I can easily look back on (without having to search through piles of notes and pages of notebooks!)


Weekly Spread

My weekly spread is probably the biggest change I’ve made for next month. Although I haven’t changed it dramatically compared to my previous months spread I’ve certainly simplified it. I wanted a more minimalistic design that can be drawn easily, but still have my essentials on it (and still look good of course!^^)


Daily Routine

This daily routine is something new I’ve decided to try. I looked through Pinterest for quite some time for ideas for this one. I wanted to find some way to keep track of a small and simple daily routine to help me stay productive and motivated as much as possible.

I’ve drawn out one of these for every week so that I can tailor it each week depending on what work I have to do! Whether I keep these up or not I’m not sure of yet, but there’s only one way to find out how it works for me.^^


Weekly Schedule

To go with my daily routine, I have a weekly schedule to keep track of any appointments I have as well as set myself a timetable each week to complete certain projects or jobs.

I also hope to set time aside each week for reading and writing amongst a few other things I wish to work on.


Month Review

I tend to end up skipping my end of month review. I think this is because, again, I make it too complicated. For next month I’ve decided to try and review just a couple of my more important goals.^^


Lets hope I do a better job of keeping up with it all next month! :))

~ Bullet Journal 2021: January Spread ~

Happy New Year everyone! I know we’re about halfway through January now and I’m (once again) late on posting this… BUT I’m still just as excited to share this with you all!^^
I’ve taken a different approach to a lot of my designs and layouts than to what I used throughout last year – I’d love to hear your opinions!

You’ll also notice that I’ve used a lot of Washi tape in my journal this time (This year is my first time using Washi tape!^^) I wanted to be able to keep my journal looking colourful whilst having little time to decorate it, so I’m trying out the tapes.^^ So far I really like how its been turning out.


Cover Page

So throughout last year, I used the same sort of layout for my cover pages (always having the title in the same place etc.) This year since I’ve recently started working with watercolour pencils I decided I’d try out some different styles for the cover pages!


Calendar

Last year I had the calendar on a single page and the second page for events and goals for the month but I very rarely used them. I decided to use up more of the space for the calendar this time and a much smaller box for goals and events. I’m hoping that by having a larger calendar I’ll be encouraged to use it more to keep on top of due dates!


Mood Tracker

Now, I know I already have a pixel year mood tracker in my yearly spread, which I mostly managed to keep up with throughout last year. But I’ve been seeing so many fun monthly mood trackers designs and really wanted to start trying them out!^^


Habit Tracker

I have a habit of changing my habit tracker layout fairly often (and I’ll probably end up continuing to do so!) but I do like how this one turned out after I’d coloured in the box for the name of each habit to match the colour I’ll use to cross them off^^
(I’ll add a picture of it coloured in next time!)


Daily Gratitude log

One of my aims for this year is to try and be more positive and appreciative as much as I can!^^ I figured the best way to encourage that would be to challenge myself to name something I’m grateful for everyday^^

For each day I can successfully name something I’m grateful for, I’ll also be colouring it in (hopefully by the end of the month it’ll be colourful!^^)


Adulting Challenge

This is an idea I came across whilst browsing through Pinterest one day, I thought it could make some common chores a little more fun.^^

I’ve added colours to the shapes and listed a few jobs I need to keep up with more frequently (Like watering my plants!) by the end of the month I’m hoping it’ll look like a fun Tetris game^^


Blog Planner

One thing I’m awful for is writing and publishing posts a lot later then I’d like..^^” Uni taking up so much of my time currently certainly doesn’t help, but, I’m hoping that this Blog planner idea I found (again on Pinterest!) will motivate and encourage me to make more of an effort with my blog!^^


Work to-do Log

I’ve had this work log since some time last year, In fact, it’s one of the few things that I haven’t changed yet! I don’t really have much to say about this one, it is as it looks, a to-do list of uni work and blog work for the month.^^


Budget Tracker

It’s always handy to have some kind of Budget tracker and this time I designed my own one to keep track of my spending and savings!^^

I’m not the greatest with handling money but I’m also not the worst! Hopefully the more I use budget trackers the better I’ll get at it^^


Brain Dump

This simple idea is probably one of my favourites this month. I come up with a lot of random ideas at very random times, so having somewhere to jot these all down in one place each month might just help me piece together my ideas!^^


Weekly Spread

Last year I used the same weekly spread layout every month. This year, although I’m not sure if i’ll use the same design throughout or try new ones (probably try some new ones!) but I’ve started the year with a new one: much simpler and easier to draw out.^^


End of Month Review

I failed to fill in my end of review most months last year and I think that was because I had too many things to fill out. To keep it a little less overwhelming I created a new one with less, hopefully I’ll start being able to look back and reflect on my month.^^


I’m really happy with how my Bullet Journal for this year has been coming along so far and I hope it provides you with a little bit of inspiration for your own!

Thanks for stopping by~^^

Bullet Journal 2020 – June Spread

Half way through the year, only 6 months left to go! I’m so proud of how long I’ve managed to keep this up so far^^

I changed a couple of things up this month as things were starting to feel a little repetitive and some things just didn’t seem to be working for me. I’m hoping these adjustments will make a huge difference^^

I don’t know about anyone else but I’m still in lock-down, so its still more important than ever to keep productive!


Cover Page

June Cover Page

I really like my design for this months cover page! I used some different styles that I came across on Pinterest as inspiration and then made it my own^^ It’s already been a hot spring so I expect summer will be the same (hopefully) so I wanted my cover page to be summery, but also not too overloaded. I think I did a pretty good job on it ^^


Calendar and Events

June Calendar and Events

Straight away I’m sure you can guess my colour scheme for this month – Green!^^ I wanted something summery again but I also didn’t want to use yellows or oranges, so the colour of freshly cut grass seemed like the next best option!Other than the ongoing lock-down, there’s not a lot else happening this month except for my dads birthday and Fathers day being right next to each other T^T


Exercise Tracker

June Exercise Tracker

Last month I added in this page instead of having my exercises in my habit tracker and so far its seemed to of worked a lot better for me. I find it a lot easier to track what exercises I need to do and when. I also like the idea of noting my before and after numbers so that I can track my progress better! I’m increasing the number of reps for each exercise by a small amount each month too!^^


Habit Tracker

June Habit Tracker

As you can see, I’ve completely changed my habit tracker style. The grid-style I used previously always ends up feeling a little too cluttered for my liking, It also seemed too big. I end up wanting to fill the page but not having enough habits to do so and then I can’t keep up with everything half as much because there’s just too much there! So this month I’m trying a much smaller and simpler style. I’m hoping that this will make it easier to keep on top of all the important things!^^


Work Log

June Work Log

Nothings changed here except the colour scheme, as per usual. This page always seems to work well enough for me, so I don’t feel any need to change it yet^^

(The one difference this month is that I have a lot more course work I need to complete ^^”)


Daily Gratitude

June Daily Gratitude

I usually have a 30-day challenge, but I have not once managed to complete all 30 days so this month I wanted to try something completely different. I’ve heard a lot about daily gratitude being a really good way to look at things more positively and being more grateful for what you have, I also like the idea of looking back and remembering all of the small things I was grateful for on those days. I believe it’s a good way to bring more mindfulness into my daily life!^^
(I really like the design I did on this page^^)


Weekly Spread

June Weekly Spread

(Once again, no changes here^^;)


End of Month Review

June End of Month Review

(Also nothing new here, although this month Koko sat in on the pictures!^^)


This post was originally written for my previous blog (which is currently still up and running for the time being) I’m currently deciding on if I move my website permanently to here or not so I’d very much appreciate any feedback or comments!^^

I hope my spread for this month will bring at least some of you some inspiration! I also hope everyone is keeping safe during this pandemic^^Good luck and best wishes to everyone for June and thanks again for stopping by ^^

I’m full-time freelance now, I guess?

So, I’ve kind of been questioning for awhile on how to actually write this post. It seems like it would be simple, but everything in my life has recently taken such a change that it’s also overwhelming.

It’s kind of hard to explain everything that’s changed without going into personal life details that I somewhat try to avoid doing (at least for now) But to sum it all up: I left my job, had to move out of my flat and my partner and I now live with my parents on a temporary basis. All of this alone, is quite a big change and difficult to re adjust to

I’m still currently in the process of organising through all my belongings and making my room a liveable space again (it’s currently just full of boxes and bags oops) So because of that, I haven’t made much headway on the freelance work. I have still been applying to the occasional job every couple of days in hopes of getting something whilst not being as active.

With this whole change and moving process, I’ve been somewhat taking some breaks and taking some time to myself to try and gain a little more inspiration and motivation again (something I’ve been having some trouble with recently) I’ve been trying to get myself back into activities and hobbies I used to enjoy a lot too, Photography and art being two of them.

This is actually a photo I took the other day on a walk 🙂

I’ve also started trying to design myself some sort of avatar/icon for my Youtube channel or just for social media for my freelance and music work, It’s my first time trying to do digital art (it’s definitely challenging!)

But anyway~ Putting aside all of the other random stuff I’ve been up to, I have still been trying to make some progress. I’ve come up with a lot of ideas and plans for my Youtube and music and I’m still applying for jobs on Fiverr. I’m actually about to create a new gig to create game music for people. Hopefully that will bring me more opportunities and jobs!

Maybe I’ll make a post about all of my ideas soon, or I’ll just leave them as a surprise! I guess I can decide that later.

Anyway, enough rambling over here. Well done if you made it this far through this post, if anyone has any cool ideas they’re willing to share, please feel free to leave a comment! 🙂

Thanks for stopping by! ^^

I got a tip!! ^^

Life is not a game of luck. If you wanna win, work hard.

Sora

So I’m a little late to this one, since I’ve been pretty busy with everything in life and all that.
But a few months ago, a job that I found rather strange but completed anyway – The client turned out to be very happy with it and gave me a tip! 🙂

It’s funny, these people asking for odd things or even serious things. For someone like me, knowing that someone was actually that happy with something I DID; really made me happy.

Yes it was only $5 but the thought of it, is what matters the most to me

Your tip made me realise how happy it makes me, to make things other people enjoy.

Thank you stranger, you made the day of someone having a hard time better. Even if only for a short while. It meant a lot.

Something reminded me why I started what I did today.

I’ve been having a bit of a rough few weeks…Months even. So my ‘real world’ job as I’ll call it for now – Is horrendous. I’ve had difficulties with my mental health since I was very young, most of which I’ve had a decent amount of control over for the past couple of years. Until the last few months. So this job – I’ve almost been there a year, started out stress full, settled down for awhile in the middle, and as of the recent months – has been horrendous

So I have a little problem with victimisation within my workplace. I’ll leave it at that for now. Because of it, my mental health has deteriorated towards the depth it used to be at (really not very fun at all) I’ve been having some very emotional days basically every day.

So around to the point of why I started what I do. I want to make a living enjoying what I do, I want to be okay, I want to be happy and enjoy my life. I have difficulties with stress – unless its something I’m extremely passionate about, then I don’t feel the stress. I feel the progress towards something I put my whole heart and soul into and it makes every second of work feel worth it. Something I have always hated the idea of, is living my life hating what I do. being miserable, staying in a dead-end job where every day is a never-ending ritual and I only just realised I’ve been doing exactly that.

I’m making a change

A risk

Things are going to be difficult for awhile again, I’m leaving my job and moving back home to pursue what I love. To put real effort into what I aspire to do.
I’d use the word ‘dream’ but it makes it sound fictional, like something that wont come true – and my ideas, plans, my wishes will come true – because I’m putting so much effort into it that I won’t let it not be real.

I refuse to live my life being disposable.