Setting a smaller goal

Its hard to keep up with writing, especially when the simple task of existing is a challenge itself. Motivation doesn’t come easily for me and living with bpd makes it all the more chaotic.

I want to set myself a small goal of some kind to try and gain some momentum but everytime I try to I tend to loose quickly.

Maybe I can start with a small post a day, every day for a week. Simple posts, updates on what I’m up to and my thoughts at the end of each day…

Does every post need a conclusion and do I need to have a point to every one? I’m not sure, but it’s something I’d like to figure out.^^

~ Bullet Journal 2021: August Spread ~

I realise I’ve been away from the bullet journal side of my blog for some time now, I felt like I was doing the same thing over and over, and that’s not what I want.

I’ve also been a little all over the place since I stopped putting as much effort and energy into my journaling, it turns out that my bullet journal is basically holding my life together… So in order to get myself back on track and into a new (and hopefully improved) routine I’ve created something new for next months spread!^^


Cover Page

I’ve been neglecting my art practice recently, I was missing motivation and inspiration to create, I was also lacking in time for some parts.

Whilst trying to put more effort into my bullet journal and block again I’m also trying to motivate myself to draw more too! So for August’s cover page, I did a lot of research (scrolling endlessly through Pinterest for inspiration…). I didn’t have the energy to do anything too complicated so I went for drawing a pretty sunflower^^


Calendar

Since I came upon this calendar design, I cant seem to give it up! It may be a little fiddly to draw all the boxes out sometimes but, I really love this adorable idea and I find it super useful to have a calendar for each month so I can make a note of important dates for each month and be able to look at them all at once^^


Mood Tracker

My August mood tracker might be my favourite mood tracker so far! I find that I have a lot more freedom of my choice of colour for each mood whilst still keeping to the theme (In this case ice cream). It’s also going to be a lot easier to distinguish multiple colours in one day (for those roller coaster days^^”).

I’m looking forwards to colouring this one in so hopefully that’ll motivate me to keep on top of my journaling next month!^^


Habit Tracker

Some of my previous habit trackers have taken up a lot of time just to draw out every month. A lot of the time I would end up missing out half the month of tracking habits because I put off drawing out the habit tracker until the very last minute…

Soo, I’ve been going through an abundance of different styles until I find one that’s easy and quick enough to draw out each month and that works for me! (I have to like how it looks to be able to use it..^^’)


Exercise Tracker

Exercise logs and trackers are another page I find myself struggling with from time to time. I like to see my progress as well as keeping track of how much exercise I do, sometimes it can get overwhelming with the different kinds of exercise and not wanting to do the same routine every day. To try and combat that conundrum I’ve used a simple exercise tracker that gives me more of an option on what exercise I do. (it also doesn’t look as bad when I don’t complete a day)

I’ve of course also added a table to see my weight and measurements at the start and end of the month to see if I’ve made any progress at all…


To-do List

My to-do list hadn’t changed in almost a year. I kept the same design because I had the same stuff going on every month. A mountain of uni work and too many personal projects that I just can never keep up with^^”.

I changed it up a bit for next month, not because I’m doing things completely different, but because I was beginning to feel like everything was becoming repetitive. This new to-do list design will hopefully stop me from feeling like I’m just doing the same things over and over and over again.


Budget

My budget tracker is another page I’d find myself avoiding drawing out. I had so many different sections and boxes that it was all just a little too much. Instead, I’ve created a much simpler design so I can keep up with my incomings and outgoings without getting as overwhelmed and confused by an overcrowded page.


Brain Dump

I haven’t changed my brain dump page in a while because even when I don’t use the page too much it’s still one of the more useful pages I have each month.

I forget a lot of things, especially any fun ideas I have and things I want to do, create or even to go somewhere so I find it incredibly useful to have a place to write these little notes down that I can easily look back on (without having to search through piles of notes and pages of notebooks!)


Weekly Spread

My weekly spread is probably the biggest change I’ve made for next month. Although I haven’t changed it dramatically compared to my previous months spread I’ve certainly simplified it. I wanted a more minimalistic design that can be drawn easily, but still have my essentials on it (and still look good of course!^^)


Daily Routine

This daily routine is something new I’ve decided to try. I looked through Pinterest for quite some time for ideas for this one. I wanted to find some way to keep track of a small and simple daily routine to help me stay productive and motivated as much as possible.

I’ve drawn out one of these for every week so that I can tailor it each week depending on what work I have to do! Whether I keep these up or not I’m not sure of yet, but there’s only one way to find out how it works for me.^^


Weekly Schedule

To go with my daily routine, I have a weekly schedule to keep track of any appointments I have as well as set myself a timetable each week to complete certain projects or jobs.

I also hope to set time aside each week for reading and writing amongst a few other things I wish to work on.


Month Review

I tend to end up skipping my end of month review. I think this is because, again, I make it too complicated. For next month I’ve decided to try and review just a couple of my more important goals.^^


Lets hope I do a better job of keeping up with it all next month! :))

A Lack of time and Excess of Inspiration

I love working on my blog, I really do, it’s something I find a lot of pleasure in doing for a variety of reasons that I’ll get into another day. I have no plans to stop with my blog whatsoever but, Its a lot harder to keep up with all of this and my university work at the same time then I thought it’d be(I’m not sleeping nearly as much as I should be^^’). I’ll be continuing to work on things as I have been so far but that also means I’m going to continue to be late on things (oops, sorry).

The work I’ve been doing whilst working towards my degree has been incredibly inspiring, I suddenly have so many more things I want to research into and write about, so many different types of writing I want to do! – I have a plan for a piece of writing that I think could make an interesting book one day, but for obvious reasons, I just don’t have the time right now. I also have a newfound interest for poetry, I often find myself writing mini poems in my head whilst I’m doing about my day; I also question if that would be something worth adding to my blog?

Would anyone be interested in sharing some poetry?^^

~ Bullet Journal 2021: January Spread ~

Happy New Year everyone! I know we’re about halfway through January now and I’m (once again) late on posting this… BUT I’m still just as excited to share this with you all!^^
I’ve taken a different approach to a lot of my designs and layouts than to what I used throughout last year – I’d love to hear your opinions!

You’ll also notice that I’ve used a lot of Washi tape in my journal this time (This year is my first time using Washi tape!^^) I wanted to be able to keep my journal looking colourful whilst having little time to decorate it, so I’m trying out the tapes.^^ So far I really like how its been turning out.


Cover Page

So throughout last year, I used the same sort of layout for my cover pages (always having the title in the same place etc.) This year since I’ve recently started working with watercolour pencils I decided I’d try out some different styles for the cover pages!


Calendar

Last year I had the calendar on a single page and the second page for events and goals for the month but I very rarely used them. I decided to use up more of the space for the calendar this time and a much smaller box for goals and events. I’m hoping that by having a larger calendar I’ll be encouraged to use it more to keep on top of due dates!


Mood Tracker

Now, I know I already have a pixel year mood tracker in my yearly spread, which I mostly managed to keep up with throughout last year. But I’ve been seeing so many fun monthly mood trackers designs and really wanted to start trying them out!^^


Habit Tracker

I have a habit of changing my habit tracker layout fairly often (and I’ll probably end up continuing to do so!) but I do like how this one turned out after I’d coloured in the box for the name of each habit to match the colour I’ll use to cross them off^^
(I’ll add a picture of it coloured in next time!)


Daily Gratitude log

One of my aims for this year is to try and be more positive and appreciative as much as I can!^^ I figured the best way to encourage that would be to challenge myself to name something I’m grateful for everyday^^

For each day I can successfully name something I’m grateful for, I’ll also be colouring it in (hopefully by the end of the month it’ll be colourful!^^)


Adulting Challenge

This is an idea I came across whilst browsing through Pinterest one day, I thought it could make some common chores a little more fun.^^

I’ve added colours to the shapes and listed a few jobs I need to keep up with more frequently (Like watering my plants!) by the end of the month I’m hoping it’ll look like a fun Tetris game^^


Blog Planner

One thing I’m awful for is writing and publishing posts a lot later then I’d like..^^” Uni taking up so much of my time currently certainly doesn’t help, but, I’m hoping that this Blog planner idea I found (again on Pinterest!) will motivate and encourage me to make more of an effort with my blog!^^


Work to-do Log

I’ve had this work log since some time last year, In fact, it’s one of the few things that I haven’t changed yet! I don’t really have much to say about this one, it is as it looks, a to-do list of uni work and blog work for the month.^^


Budget Tracker

It’s always handy to have some kind of Budget tracker and this time I designed my own one to keep track of my spending and savings!^^

I’m not the greatest with handling money but I’m also not the worst! Hopefully the more I use budget trackers the better I’ll get at it^^


Brain Dump

This simple idea is probably one of my favourites this month. I come up with a lot of random ideas at very random times, so having somewhere to jot these all down in one place each month might just help me piece together my ideas!^^


Weekly Spread

Last year I used the same weekly spread layout every month. This year, although I’m not sure if i’ll use the same design throughout or try new ones (probably try some new ones!) but I’ve started the year with a new one: much simpler and easier to draw out.^^


End of Month Review

I failed to fill in my end of review most months last year and I think that was because I had too many things to fill out. To keep it a little less overwhelming I created a new one with less, hopefully I’ll start being able to look back and reflect on my month.^^


I’m really happy with how my Bullet Journal for this year has been coming along so far and I hope it provides you with a little bit of inspiration for your own!

Thanks for stopping by~^^

~ 2021 Bullet Journal Yearly Spread ~

Although I didn’t manage to keep my blog updated on my Bullet Journal throughout this year, I at least managed to keep up with it myself, I didn’t miss a single month!^^
It’s become harder to stay motivated this year due to everything going on in the world recently (covid-19 and all that^^’), staying on top of my journal and using it on a daily basis has really helped me keep some structure throughout this chaotic struggle of a year.

This year was my first real attempt at keeping it up for more than a couple months and I think it’s safe to say that, it was a success!^^ Next year I’m aiming to improve on it in as many ways as I can, new spreads, new designs and layouts; I’ve already made a start on my yearly spread pages and they’re definitely an improvement on last years!


2021 Cover page

Bullet Journal 2021 Cover Page

Last year I only used one page for my cover page, this year I decided to spread it across two and I’m pretty glad I did^^. I also made the mistake last year cluttering up the page a little too much so this time I chose to try a more simple but colourful design! I actually used my watercolour pencils for this (I’ve been practising with them for awhile now^^).

(although its simple, I’m really happy with how this page turned out. Definitely an improvement from last year!^^)


2021 Calendar

2021 Calendar

I was never very sure about the calendar design I did last year, this year I’ve actually ended up with a similar style but I completely changed to colouring of it. I used blues for the colder seasons, greens for spring etc and so on~ I thought it was a really cute idea!^^

(Maybe this year I’ll actually use this calendar more^^’..)


Pixel Year

Although this design is basically the same as last year, I’ll be doing monthly mood trackers as well (mostly because I’ve seen some really cool ideas I want to try!^^).

I still wanted to keep my pixel year along side the monthly ones so that at the end of the year I can still look at it as a whole and reflect on how my year went, what months were better or worse and why.


2021 Goals

Last year for my goals page I chose the simple idea of a scroll and just writing a list of what I wanted to do. This year I’ve decided to take a completely different approach, I’ll instead be setting goals in multiple areas of my life. Not only does this encourage me to think more about how I want to improve my life but it also helps me really keep on top of multiple goals at once!

(I can imaging having more goals will either make things more challenging or easier, in my opinion both are good^^)


Savings Tracker

I wanted to make my savings tracker a little more interesting then my previous one (a drawing of a jar), so after looking around Pinterest for some inspiration, this brick wall Idea was my favourite, I can colour in the individual bricks for each goal I hit!

( I hope to have a really colourful wall by the end of next year^^)


Weight loss Tracker

This is another page I didn’t make use of nearly enough last year, although I blame that mostly on Lockdown! I haven’t been able to do nearly as much exercise as I’d hoped to have done this year^^”

(I’ve really been enjoying using washi tape as borders to kind of spice up the empty space on the page! It’s especially helpful when you don’t have as much time to spend decorating)


Books Log

I’m hoping to read more this year, especially since I got the Game of Thrones book set for Christmas (Thanks mum!^^) Im also hoping to try out some new books and I want to keep better track of what I’m reading so I’ve added an extra page to my Books log so I can name more books and maybe even rate them!

(Did anyone else get any good books for Christmas this year?^^)


Tv/Movies log

Again blaming Covid19 – I watched a LOT of new series this year (There really hasn’t been a lot else to do..) and so, I ran out of space on my TV log! Hopefully by having the extra page (like on the book log) I’ll be able to keep track of more.

(I especially plan to watch more Anime again this year, so I’m gonna need the extra space^^’)


Uni Tracker / Assignment Log

Adjusting my time to keep up with Uni, my Bullet Journal and my Blog has been difficult this year. Now that I’m starting to get the hang of a new routine I’m hoping to work on more again and keep on top of it, so with that, I’ve designed a tracker to mark off each week of work, each assignment and keep a log of my assessment results!


Social Media Tracker

Last but not least, although I didn’t see a lot of growth in the last year I want to continue to work hard and remain hopeful and positive^^.

Hopefully by having a social media tracker again, I’ll stay motivated to keep wanting to make those numbers rise!^^


Good luck to everyone this year attempting a Bullet journal, I hope I can help provide some inspiration^^ I’d also love to hear some of your ideas so feel free to comment some of your favourite pages for your yearly spread!


Stay tuned for my January spread~ ^^

Mindfulness, what so good about it?

Not so long ago Mindfulness was something I’d laugh at; I didn’t intend to learn more about it either, but as I started my TEFL course it became something more important, more relevant and incredibly helpful. Luckily enough I got two Mindfulness courses for free!
As soon as I gained an understanding of Mindfulness and the science behind it, my entire opinion completely changed.
I’ve made a brief summary of some of what I think are the most important(or helpful) benefits of practising Mindfulness regularly and how it helps!^^

1. Improved Well-being

Our well-being is extremely important, mental and physical. It’s what keeps us going, how we get things done and how we live our lives to the fullest!
It’s important to look after ourselves in order to keep up our well-being and although there are many proven ways to do so, we tend to neglect it and end up in either mental slump or being constantly sick^^”
By practising Mindfulness regularly your overall health will see a major improvement (you’ve gotta keep it regular to get the most from these benefits!) You’ll learn more about how across the next 10 points.^^

2. Improved Focus

Staying focused is never a simple task, it’s just so easy to get distracted by people around you, maybe your phone keeps going off or you just cant stop thinking about everything else you would rather do instead of the task at hand.( I know I’m always thinking of everything I would rather do^^”)

Regular Mindfulness and Meditation (to my surprise too) really makes a difference!
Practising mindfulness regularly encourages the growth of neural networks and helps create new connections in the brain. We’re basically rewiring our brain to find better ways to react, which helps us handle tasks better and cope with stress and emotions. Reacting Mindfully also helps us to recover from any distractions and bring ourselves back into a focused and working state of mind.

3. Improved Sleep

Does anyone else struggle with getting to sleep most nights or is it just me? I always have a very active mind, I’m constantly thinking about something. Mindfulness helps us learn how to calm our mind and let go of anything that may be troubling us. Not only that but Mindfulness meditation lowers our heart rate and reduces the need for sleeping pills!

There are so many activities and exercises that originate from Mindfulness and meditation that help us with all these things. The Body Scan meditation is one of my favourites before bed! It helps to relax all the muscles that I don’t even realise are tense and it helps to reduce the stress in the mind and body, which in my opinion is a pretty good way to get to sleep.

4. Improved Relationships

One thing that took me awhile to accept is that Mindfulness actually helps relationships. How you ask? well, surprisingly in a lot of ways.
Being able to react Mindfully makes a big difference for a lot of things, we become more empathic, compassionate and by learning to live more in the present moment we become more aware and attentive too!

Not only does Mindfulness encourage these positive emotions and actions, but it also lowers the amount we react negatively and helps us shift unconscious behaviours that can impact our relationships

Whether its friends, family or a partner, Mindfulness helps us appreciate those we care about even more!

5. Improved Leadership

Being in management or leadership of any kind can be extremely stressful, which is why a lot of managers often come across as strict and harsh. A stressed leader creates a negative atmosphere for their employees which can lead to a lot of workplace (and sometimes home) problems.

Practising mindfulness helps manage stress and react more positively to situations, If managers aren’t stressed then it’s more likely that employees wont be as stressed either. It creates a calmer and more positive workplace atmosphere where everyone is a little bit happier.^^
Not only does mindfulness help manage stress but also allows a leader to be more selfless and compassionate to their employees which helps build much stronger workplace relationships!

6. Increased Awareness

We all miss a lot of little things on a day to day basis, we don’t stop and ‘smell the roses’ or appreciate our surroundings. So many people these days are always in such a rush to get to wherever they’re going, but what about the world around us? There’s so much more of it to see right in front of us and all we need to do is stop and open our eyes.

Mindfulness is living in the present moment, even something as simple as a mindful walk can change our entire perspective of things. We notice more and experience so much more with all 5 senses (touch, sight, smell, hearing and taste)
Experiencing things just a little bit more helps us to appreciate more and truly understand something through our senses.

7. Become More Creative

Do you ever feel like you’ve ‘lost’ your creativity, I’ve had that problem a fair few times. You just get stuck and frustrated, wanting to create something but not knowing what or how; just completely lacking ideas and motivation.
Mindfulness helps to enhance creativity by opening our mind and allowing us to relax completely and focus on new ideas.

Distractions are the main downfall to creativity, always being ‘wired’ and stressed out kills creativity and to really create something amazing we need to be able to relax and ‘reset’ ourselves through means such as Mindfulness Meditation.

8. Reduce Anxiety

Regular Mindfulness practise can do wonders for Anxiety and people discredit it far too much. I have personally experienced the benefits on this one, I often have a lot of difficulties with Anxiety in many different situations and it really can become overwhelming^^”

How does it really help though? Well, Mindfulness actually teaches us how to respond to difficult situations and decreases rumination which in turn also helps us to become more calm (Rumination means to continuously think about the same thoughts, which are mostly sad or dark)
Another way Mindfulness practise can help us reduce Anxiety is that it helps us more aware of the present, to focus on what’s around us and to have more mindful reactions.

9. Reduce Stress

Stress has got to be my biggest struggle, I’m really not too sure why or how but its something that effects me a lot, so I can definitely vouch for Mindfulness being genuinely pretty helpful!^^
The way Mindfulness helps to reduce stress is very similar to how it helps with Anxiety, it helps you become more aware of your thoughts and teaches not to react immediately without thinking (Mindless reaction)

Mindfulness is a skill, it can be learned and improved and in order to react mindfully in a stressful situation you need to learn to access that skill. We have what can be called a security guard in our brains(The Amygdala), this security guard controls what thoughts are allowed to access the higher parts of the brain, by passing the Amygdala and accessing the higher parts of the brain you can then start making much more mindful decisions and reactions.
In order to pass the Amygdala you need to learn to stop and breath, then focus on your breathing and allow yourself to take more time to react mindfully in a stressful situation.

10. Decrease Rumination and Worry

I mentioned Rumination previously very briefly and I realise its something a lot of people seem to struggle with and be unaware of. Rumination means to think about the same (usually negative, sad or dark) thoughts over and over and over again, this in turn causes us to worry a lot too. This all probably links somewhere into overthinking things.

In order to combat Rumination you have to be able to bring your attention to the present and find a distraction that works for you.

Somethings on your mind and you’ve been thinking about it over and over? Mindfulness practise allows us to take a breath and look again at these thoughts and to learn how to accept these thoughts and to then let them go, helping us to breath a little better and think a little clearer about a situation.

11. Feel Happy!

Everyone prefers to wake up feeling good and to go to bed in a good mood right? Out of all of the benefits that come from practising Mindfulness regularly, I’d say that the biggest one is the overall improvement of your mood! You feel happy more frequently with less sudden mood drops.

All of the previously mentioned benefits (and of course ones not yet mentioned) all lead up to this one too: learning to relax more, getting better quality and more uninterrupted sleep, improved relationships and less stress and anxiety – they all add up to being happier so to end this I cant see a reason why you wouldn’t want to practise Mindfulness!^^


Have you previously tried Mindfulness, is it something you do regularly now? Is it something you laugh at the thought of or do you simply not know enough about it?

I’d love to hear what you all have to say!^^

January to June, my 6 Month Review~

6 Months ago was the beginning of 2020, a year in which most of us hoped to be a good one – a fresh start, a year full of promise and progress. Boy were we all wrong.^^” One things for sure, the world is in a much different place than anyone could have possibly predicted 6 months ago. It’s still debatable whether it’s for better or for worse but in my opinion, despite all the heartbreaking losses and chaos that has spilled across the word, I believe that it’s ending a lot better than it started. People have been spending time with their families again and learning to appreciate the little things more, as well as all that, people have been listening to nature again and finally realising how important it is to look after our environment!
All I can hope for is that when this chaos finally ends (which may be soon^^) the world will become a better place again and people wont take things for granted so much.

On another note, 6 months! Do you know what that means!?

It’s time for a fun little review on how my Bullet Journal has been coming along, whats happened so far this year and whats changed. I’m going to share my progress with you all!^^


Then and Now – Bujo Progress

If you aren’t interested in Bullet Journals ten feel free to skip past it, There’s plenty more stuff after this section^^

Cover Pages

This year has been my real first attempt at Bullet Journaling and although I have days or a week at a time where I’ll end up slacking, I always manage to pick it back up again afterwards!

As it was my first attempt, my designs weren’t the neatest to begin with. My 2020 cover page just looks like chaos to me now compared to my recent May cover page. My layouts have become a lot more ‘cleaner’ and a lot more simplistic, I really do prefer it! Not only are the layouts drawn better but my photography has really improved too! (If I do say so myself^^)


Habit Trackers

My habit trackers have also made a big improvement, to begin with it looked pretty plain and the end result was always just plain messy ^^” After a couple of months, I’d only slightly altered it so that I was using pencil instead of pen to fill it in which certainly made it look tidier, but I still wasn’t really happy. This month I’ve used a different design and I just absolutely love it! ^^


Budget – Exercise Tracker

At the start of the year I had a budget planner as part of the reoccurring monthly spread, I never really managed to use it properly, I haven’t really had much of a use for it for a few months so I’ve been trying something new each month. First I tried out having an ‘Ideal Day’ page, but that’s not really something you can put in every month… Next I tried having a Studio Ghibli checklist, which again would have been better as part of the yearly spread(although that month I watched A LOT of studio ghibli movies…) The next month down the line I’d really started to focus on my health and fitness and the Habit Tracker really wasn’t helping me encourage myself to do more exercise, so I designed an Exercise Tracker for myself!^^ And I’ll tell you what, my Exercise Tracker a long with my new Habit Tracker design have really been helping me keep motivated! I’m keeping up with it all so much better now^^


Monthly Challenge

Another big change has been my 30 Day challenge, I honestly don’t think I’ve managed to complete a full months worth even once yet^^” I’ve tried making the challenged easier each month and I still just never complete them all, I can never seem to find the time. This month is actually the first I’ve changed it, I made it a daily gratitude page which I’ve already done a terrible job at keeping up to date with. I actually already have plans to change it for next month already. Ironically, I’m thinking of changing it to a Budget page…


Weekly Spread

The last big design change I’ve made in the past 6 months has got to be my Weekly Spread. I would’t say its changed much but it definitely looks a lot neater and more carefully done than it did in January, I’m a lot more proud of it now then I was then!^^


Pixel Year

So I’ve attempted a Pixel year once before and I didn’t really keep up with it too well ^^” I think I managed about 2 months and maybe a week.. This year on the other hand, I’ve completed 5 months!

It’s been a very up and down year for everyone, a lot of horrible things have been going on and I can only hope that the remaining 6 months of this year be promising!^^


Social Media

At the start of the year I decided that I wanted to try and keep track of any increases and decreases on my Social Media followings.

I’m not usually one of those people to be infatuated with social media in any way, but its become quite important for my career and seeing as I do love seeing progress in numbers I thought this simple design would work perfectly.

As you can see, although small I have been getting a few more followers across the board!^^ It may only be small, but its enough for me~


Year Goals

Looking back at the goals I made for this year, I now see that some of them may have been a little too ambitious ^^”
For one, I haven’t been doing nearly enough on Youtube anymore to gain any subscribers so thats unlikely to happen and going to Japan definitely isn’t going to happen any time soon.

The others though are a lot more achievable, I’m only 3 weeks away from completing my TEFL and I’m due to start an OU course at the end of this year too!^^

Before this pandemic started, I was getting close to achieving a level 1 seller on Fiverr too but work really slowed down recently because of it. I still have 6 months though so theres still a chance!^^


The Biggest Changes Over the Past 6 Months

I’ve been getting a little bit stuck on this recently, so much has changed and I just don’t know where to begin!
All of these changes aren’t just because of the corona-virus pandemic, I’ve been working really hard (almost) every day to improve myself and my work^^


Work and Education – What am I doing now?

At the beginning of this year I was just starting my TEFL course and two Mindfulness courses that accompanied it. I’ve very nearly finished them in fact I would have finished it by now but I got a tad distracted and fell behind again ^^” I got a really good deal on an extension with some other really useful short courses which I’ll definitely be looking through soon! There’s some life coaching ones and a course on how to start a business, maybe they’ll help me learn some more useful stuff for my blog^^

Since my TEFL course is coming to its end, I’ve been looking into what else I need to finally become an English Teacher in Japan. Originally I was going to try to get a job with just my TEFL certific ate but after looking into some really good companies that come with a lot of good bonus’, I realised I should really get a Bachelors degree already, so I am. I’ve applied for an OU course and I’m currently sorting out funding for my tuition^^ I’ll be starting my course English Literature and Creative Writing in October this year!

6 months ago I had no intention of going to university (especially with all the current chaos) I guess I forgot that Open University was a thing. I’m surprisingly pretty excited to start it even though I’m very aware it wont be an easy course ^^” I was always good at English so hopefully I wont crash and burn! I’ll be doing my course full time in attempt to finish it in 3 years so I’ll definitely suffer ^^”

(Is anyone else doing an OU course soon? What are you applying for, I’d love to hear about it^^)

Another drastic change has got to be my work focus! At the start I was always focused on working on my music, but I’ve found more enjoyment recently in working on my Bullet Journal and writing blog posts. I’d like to continue to learn and share things, I’d love to help people who are new to the idea of working from home and be able to give advice so with that I seem to have moved my focus to my lifestyle blog. I do still plan to work on some music and maybe release a song every so often, but I’m not sure its what I want as a job right now (maybe I’ll change my mind again one day)


Health and Fitness – How I’ve Improved

By the end of last year I had managed to gain an annoying amount of weight^^” so this year I’ve been trying my best to get back into regular exercise and become a lot healthier! My Bullet Journal has helped a lot with creating a routine and sticking to it each week or month. I haven’t managed to loose a massive amount of weight but I’ve definitely improved my health by a lot recently!^^ I take vitamins everyday as well as have at least one cup of green tea a day, I do a set amount of exercise 5 days a week whilst trying to hit my step goal every day too! I obviously haven’t kept this up even nearly perfectly… I still get the odd day or even a week where I completely lack motivation and can’t push myself to get a single task done. ^^”

I’m confident that I’ve made improvements! I’ve got a lot more strength and a little more endurance than I had in January, not only that but my Resting Heart Rate has gone down!! I used to have a high average on my RHR so I’m really happy to see that theirs definitely improvement there^^

I also can’t remember the last time I got sick, I used to have a pretty harsh cold at least once a month^^” It was awful. But I don’t think I’ve gotten really sick even once this year yet!


Mindfulness and Mental Health – Has it Helped?

I always used to be quite close minded to the idea of Mindfulness, I guess mostly because I didn’t understand it and I didn’t understand it until I did the two Mindfulness courses that I got with my TEFL course. I’m surprised that I found it so interesting, especially since science never was my favourite thing.^^”

I learn’t a lot about the brain and how it functions when it comes to thoughts and emotions, and that in order to think clearly about something and react mindfully, you need to allow your thoughts to pass the amygdala (the security guard of your brain basically) By passing this guard, it allows you to think before reacting. It’s a difficult thing to get a grasp on, I really had to spend a lot of time learning to meditate and breathe properly. I’m still not great at it but now I at least understand how!^^

It’s hard to pinpoint an improvement when it comes to mental health, by using some of the techniques I’ve learnt I’ve definitely learned how to stay calm and think before reacting, It’s also become quite useful in helping myself to focus on a task and actually get work done^^” This is all a major improvement for me compared to 6 months ago, I can handle stressful situations so much better now and I’m finding it a lot easier to relax every so often too^^

I’ve learnt to understand myself better and how to look after myself better, it turns out something as small as making your bed when you get up every morning really does help give yourself a small boost of motivation to then get even more tasks done!^^


There’s always a lot more I wish I could write about but if i write for too long at one time I really start to loose my focus^^”

Aside from the chaos of Covid-19, this year has been somewhat successful so far. I just hope I can say the same in another 6 months!

I hope everyone else’s year has been going well to some extent, tell something good thats happened to you so far! I’d love to hear about it^^

Thanks so much for all of the support I’ve had so far!^^

I’m full-time freelance now, I guess?

So, I’ve kind of been questioning for awhile on how to actually write this post. It seems like it would be simple, but everything in my life has recently taken such a change that it’s also overwhelming.

It’s kind of hard to explain everything that’s changed without going into personal life details that I somewhat try to avoid doing (at least for now) But to sum it all up: I left my job, had to move out of my flat and my partner and I now live with my parents on a temporary basis. All of this alone, is quite a big change and difficult to re adjust to

I’m still currently in the process of organising through all my belongings and making my room a liveable space again (it’s currently just full of boxes and bags oops) So because of that, I haven’t made much headway on the freelance work. I have still been applying to the occasional job every couple of days in hopes of getting something whilst not being as active.

With this whole change and moving process, I’ve been somewhat taking some breaks and taking some time to myself to try and gain a little more inspiration and motivation again (something I’ve been having some trouble with recently) I’ve been trying to get myself back into activities and hobbies I used to enjoy a lot too, Photography and art being two of them.

This is actually a photo I took the other day on a walk 🙂

I’ve also started trying to design myself some sort of avatar/icon for my Youtube channel or just for social media for my freelance and music work, It’s my first time trying to do digital art (it’s definitely challenging!)

But anyway~ Putting aside all of the other random stuff I’ve been up to, I have still been trying to make some progress. I’ve come up with a lot of ideas and plans for my Youtube and music and I’m still applying for jobs on Fiverr. I’m actually about to create a new gig to create game music for people. Hopefully that will bring me more opportunities and jobs!

Maybe I’ll make a post about all of my ideas soon, or I’ll just leave them as a surprise! I guess I can decide that later.

Anyway, enough rambling over here. Well done if you made it this far through this post, if anyone has any cool ideas they’re willing to share, please feel free to leave a comment! 🙂

Thanks for stopping by! ^^

I got a tip!! ^^

Life is not a game of luck. If you wanna win, work hard.

Sora

So I’m a little late to this one, since I’ve been pretty busy with everything in life and all that.
But a few months ago, a job that I found rather strange but completed anyway – The client turned out to be very happy with it and gave me a tip! 🙂

It’s funny, these people asking for odd things or even serious things. For someone like me, knowing that someone was actually that happy with something I DID; really made me happy.

Yes it was only $5 but the thought of it, is what matters the most to me

Your tip made me realise how happy it makes me, to make things other people enjoy.

Thank you stranger, you made the day of someone having a hard time better. Even if only for a short while. It meant a lot.

Something reminded me why I started what I did today.

I’ve been having a bit of a rough few weeks…Months even. So my ‘real world’ job as I’ll call it for now – Is horrendous. I’ve had difficulties with my mental health since I was very young, most of which I’ve had a decent amount of control over for the past couple of years. Until the last few months. So this job – I’ve almost been there a year, started out stress full, settled down for awhile in the middle, and as of the recent months – has been horrendous

So I have a little problem with victimisation within my workplace. I’ll leave it at that for now. Because of it, my mental health has deteriorated towards the depth it used to be at (really not very fun at all) I’ve been having some very emotional days basically every day.

So around to the point of why I started what I do. I want to make a living enjoying what I do, I want to be okay, I want to be happy and enjoy my life. I have difficulties with stress – unless its something I’m extremely passionate about, then I don’t feel the stress. I feel the progress towards something I put my whole heart and soul into and it makes every second of work feel worth it. Something I have always hated the idea of, is living my life hating what I do. being miserable, staying in a dead-end job where every day is a never-ending ritual and I only just realised I’ve been doing exactly that.

I’m making a change

A risk

Things are going to be difficult for awhile again, I’m leaving my job and moving back home to pursue what I love. To put real effort into what I aspire to do.
I’d use the word ‘dream’ but it makes it sound fictional, like something that wont come true – and my ideas, plans, my wishes will come true – because I’m putting so much effort into it that I won’t let it not be real.

I refuse to live my life being disposable.